The “no-internet” situation!

So we are between Internet services; we don’t have any service at home! I am not sure how I am going to survive this “no-internet” situation! What am I going to do? How am I going to function? I am sure, all those internet users reading this blog will agree that I am certainly not overreacting here! (Do not go on the exclamation marks after every sentence; I need some support here!) I think they should come up with some “self -help” books to deal with a crisis like this one! During this “sabbatical” from the “cyberspace”, wonder what are my days going to like, especially the coming Sat and Sun!

Thinking of activities I can possibly do as I sit in my almost empty (abandoned-like) office floor,  when the rest of the world is enjoying their Fri night after a long week, like a herd let loose!

So coming back to the one who is still tied to her office chair and laptop, thinking hard about my “to-do” list, this is what comes to my mind as I type : reading some stuff that I have been planning to, and haven’t been able to yet, for a long time/ getting up early to watch the sun rise from my window, then sipping tea till the sun warms up for his day/ spending some time with my roomie / weather permitting, taking a walk outside / cooking something yummy to go with the Yellow Tail gifted by a very dear friend (currently on vacation on the west coast!) / some PR phone calls to family – friends/ exercise-meditation / introspection and contemplation …

Hmmm.. that’s quite a list there, eh?

Wow! Up until now I knew how much change Internet has brought in our lives. Didn’t realize how much change, even its absence, can bring to us!!!

Heil Internet! LOL!

I smile…

Flowers in my room bring warmth and color

The wind plays music whisking the wind chime

The delightful daffodils and tulips  tender

Tell me now its my time!

Bless those barren dim days

And cold nights with hope none

‘Coz in a different light I notice the rays

Brighter so now, like a just-arrived sun!

Smile smile, life is beautiful

Just blissful, peaceful and content be

Turn  inwards to a huge world within

And you’ll smile to whatever you see!

Fog in-fog out!

For the past two days, my drive to work has been particularly interesting! As I stepped out of the house in a hurry (like the rest of us), I stepped into a very different morning! But for my car, I could see NOTHING, as it was one of the foggiest mornings I had ever seen! I started driving and suddenly realized that I had to be very cautious because there was no visibility beyond a couple of meters! It was like suddenly halting, coming out of our mundane trance  and looking around, which we seldom do. For once, my thoughts were replaced by what was around me that morning… and what a morning that was!

I tried to pierce through the fog trying to see familiar environs. All I could see was dried branches for trees, which had embraced the winters by shedding their leaves,  just like landscapes in a black and white Chinese painting. The second layer of trees was a lighter silhouette that, best put, merely existed. I would see a house or two as if painted in dull water colors. It appeared as if I was driving in a city of clouds… How fairytale-ish is that, I thought to myself! I am sure I have fantasized something like this when I was little. Thinking that that fantasy has come true means a lot, if I just don’t discount it by being indifferent. I wondered if fairy tales and childhood fantasies do come true. May be they do, it just that we have long forgotten them to notice!

Nature changes itself, not only through Her seasons, but even every day, or at times every hour. This reminded me of a contemporary concept of a lover trying to keep the ‘spice of the relationship’ by donning new ideas. To a certain extent we depend on Nature for our moods on a day to day basis. She becomes a good subject for small talks. She cleans my car in rains and tells me to be extra cautious while driving when its icy. I go berserk when its a sunny day and my spirits are higher than high! I want to write poetry because I am happy. I plan my vacations around Her. And there are a million things that I can write. But did I ever sit up and express our gratitude to her?

This reminds me of  an excerpt from one of the books that has influenced my life the most: The Autobiography Of  A Yogi by Paramahansa Yogananda.  He writes, ” Our relation with nature is one of practical business. We tease her, so to speak, to know how she can be used to serve our purposes; we make use of her energies, whose Source yet remains unknown. In science our relation with nature is one that exists between a man and his servant, or in a philosophical sense she is like a captive in the witness box. We cross-examine her, challenge her, and minutely weigh her evidence in human scales which cannot measure her hidden values. On the other hand, when the self is in communion with a higher power, nature automatically obeys, without stress or strain, the will of man. This effortless command over nature is called ‘miraculous’ by the uncomprehending materialist “.

Nature is a way greater concept than mankind. We have seen Her rage, more so in the recent past, in the natural disasters. A little nudge from her and our lives are toppled! I realized that ideally all we can do is be submissive to the force called Nature. It is but the Supreme in Its manifested tangible form.

I reached work that foggy morning, “thats a lot of fog cleared off my mind”,  I chuckled to myself.

Riding on the waves…

Now up and surging high as if I will embrace the sky

Now thrashing the shores bursting into a thousand dream-splinters

Disconcerted, I gallop on the emotion waves… why?

Frantically in bewilderment groping

Yet forging ahead clutching my instinct for a straw

See no more but a speck of light, fleeting

Enough of the riding, to be tranquil I long

Not to identify with the momentary waves living and dying

But with the unwavering ocean that begets them, serene yet  strong…

Life, beauty, duty….

“I slept and dreamed that life was beauty

I woke and found that life was duty

Lo! I did my duty

And found that life was beauty!”

How beautifully do these verses present the essence of Karma Yoga